{"title":"Zines","description":"Creative nonfiction zines written, designed \u0026amp; risograph printed in Portland, Oregon. Topics include mental health recovery, socialism, identitarianism, black holes and life as a working artist.","products":[{"product_id":"how-to-laugh-instead-of-wanting-to-die-digital-zine","title":"How to laugh instead of wanting to die (DIGITAL ZINE)","description":"\u003cp\u003eThis listing is for a digital PDF of the zine, available to download upon purchase. To order a hardcopy, go \u003ca title=\"How to laugh instead of wanting to die zine\" href=\"https:\/\/bebemontoya.com\/products\/how-to-laugh-instead-of-wanting-to-die-zine\" data-mce-href=\"https:\/\/bebemontoya.com\/products\/how-to-laugh-instead-of-wanting-to-die-zine\"\u003ehere\u003c\/a\u003e!\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003eThis is my first self-published collection of essays. 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